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I Know the Gods are Sharing a Latte and a Laugh...

2008-06-30T09:01:00.000-04:00

Just when I think things in my life start to relax, something happens that makes me question whether life is of free will, or if things happen as a result of higher power intervention . I swear, I truly believe that the gods of all religions get together over a latte to look down on my life for a good laugh . It's as if when they get bored they look down on me and say, "Okay, Okay, that was good, but watch this....wait for it.....wait for it....OHHHHHH! " Then following whatever jackassary they've just caused in my life, they high five and share a nice hearty chuckle. I can even imagine them saying, "Ahhh, good times!" as they wipe the tears of hysteria from their faces. Sigh.... This past weekend is just a sample of the daily insanity of my existence. Let me fill you in.

Friday night I call my boyfriend Danny on my way home from work to discover he has decided to take up the hobby of skateboarding (for those of you who know him, I can almost SEE the "oh shit" look on your faces) . I personally attribute this to his hours of dedication to the xbox 360 game of "SK8TE" and his love of the show Rob and Big. Now, don't get me wrong. I think a nice hobby is a brilliant idea. But the thought of my 27 year old boyfriend on a skateboard only breeds fear and caution in me .
SO, anyways, on my way home I dropped by his friends to witness the "brilliance" of his board abilities knowing full well this new hobby will eventually lead to broken bones and unemployment . Well....so far....it was harmless. Not a whole lot of movement, and no bumps or bruises. Amen....

THEN, skateboard training, day two....wanting nothing but to see the new pixar film Wall-E, I call Danny from work to mention my desire to see it. Actually it was said in a tone that said "I'm asking you out of courtesy, without the need for a response because you ARE going whether you want to or not". Yes...I am a bitch....sue me . Even not REQUIRING a respond, he DID, mentioning that he didn't really want to do anything, but sit on some ice. Hmm....sit on ice....I sensed a fall. Rolling my eyes, I hung up .
What I found when I got home from work was NOT my boyfriend on ice, but what looks like the hulk . Little hands with puffy fingers sticking out of huge, swollen forearms. Oh snap (no pun intended) Houston we have a problem . It appeared that he had not only hurt his ass, but possibly broken BOTH of his arms....and this was DAY 2.... Ughhhh.....and I thought the "baseball card investing" was a bad hobby. He ALWAYS has a knack of one upping himself...

So to make a long story slightly less long....he luckily only chipped a big piece off of one of his bones and jammed or sprained the other. Nice. The BEST part of this whole story is that he went to his friends yesterday, where the "incident" occurred and was gone for a few hours. I called to make sure he was OK and he says, "Honey, we're at Dicks Sports". When I asked him what for he replied "John's buying a skateboard."
I SWEAR!!! The gods are STILL sharing a good chuckle about this episode of my life.....til next time....

I'm NOT in the Rodeo, so STOP with the Bullshit!!!

2008-06-10T08:59:00.000-04:00

This may be a silly question, but do I have a tattoo on my forehead that says "BITCH HERE" with an arrow pointing to my ear ? I mean, I feel like I'm walking around in a shirt that says "It IS my fault" because today I think I've been dumped on more than a porta-john at a construction site . The funny thing is, I actually woke up early today, and in a stellar mood at that. Now, it's only noon and I feel like swallowing a grenade so people can bitch they have to clean up my itty bitty bloody pieces and I won't have to hear it because my ears will be gone . Knowing my luck....those would still function...sigh . It seems like I'm living in one of those movies like Resident Evil, or Dawn of the Dead . Everyone I've talked to today may as well be foaming at the mouth and trying to rip out my aorta . Even my cat has been behaving like a rabie infested beast out for blood. We FINALLY get some nice weather and people start behaving like lunatics . I'm hoping that my friend JT is right when he says "maybe it's the pollen". I'm ready to fully arm myself with a machine gun full of benedryl and a belt full of extra ammo to deal with this crisis. I've had it . I'm not in the rodeo...I don't need the bull-shit . If that doesn't work, I'll be forced to resort to plan B which consists of alot of duct tape and a few hearty bitch slaps . I hate to turn to such drastic measures but unfortunately under extreme circumstances, they are unavoidable.
Ughhh.....I'm so stressed . It's sad when you consider a quiet drive alone to the drug store to buy tampons a vacation. Maybe next time I'll go crazy and invite a friend .

I've Moved!!!

2006-06-30T08:46:00.000-04:00

Ok, to all of you who read my blog, I've moved to another site. So feel free to email me, or call me to to get the new site. If not, I talk to most of you throughout the week anyways. You may also post a comment here with your email address and I'll send you the link to my new site. Sorry for the inconvenience!

Talk to everyone soon,
Ginger

Glad to see Someone Sharing THEIR Brain!

2006-06-22T08:26:00.000-04:00

I hope everyone enjoys this poem. My good friend Mark wrote it and I figured with recent events in my life, it couldn't be more fitting. I felt it was definatley worth sharing. Thanks again for the poem Mark! - Ginger

Parents stand beside us, our guardian’s till they pass.
They never seem to age as time passes thru the glass.
One day we are awakened and we see their life’s grown frail.
The thought that they may not be there make our hearts grow sadly pale.
We need to learn to love the time and memories we hold dear.
Because loving parents are a gift that we all loose I truly fear.
The gates of our hearts holds their warm memories ever so fast.
Only behind those loving gates will they forever last.

MT 6/4/06

Thank You For Your Prayers!!!

2006-06-21T14:22:00.000-04:00

I have to begin this post full of thanks and appreciation to all of you who kept my mom and my family in their prayers. The results came back on the lump that was removed from my mom's throat which was a well needed relief. The lump was found to be non-cancerous! Those of you who know my mom will find it funny that she took the news with a grain of salt, only wondering how quickly she can return to vacuuming everyday, and mowing the lawn. It was cut the day before yesterday, but you can IMAGINE how long it is already. Because ya know, the grass grows MUCH quicker in my parents front yard :) !!! As my mom says, "It really NEEDS to be cut!" Anyways, I owe everyone a big hug and all my gratitude for their concern and kind words. I truly appreciate it. It is an honor to have caring and wonderful people in my life.

Full of gratitude and enlightenment,

Ginger

Sorry About the Seriousness. I Just Want to Vent.

2006-06-16T08:15:00.000-04:00

Well, I don't usually like to post about anything too incredibly serious, but since I am trying to mantain my composure at work and to my family, I'll vent my feelings here. Today at 7:00 am, my mom went in for surgury. She had a large lump growing in her throat which I believe the doctor told her had attached itself to her thyroid, killing 75% of it. They said that they won't know what it is until they remove it. I'm praying that it isn't cancerous, but like I said, we're all playing the waiting game. I'm trying not to let it show that it's bothering me, but all I want to do is break down and cry. I keep thinking about how different life would be without her here. I don't know if I could handle it. She's helped me so much through life that the thought of doing it alone scares me. Anyways, I just needed to vent a little. If it's not too much to ask, if any of my friends read this, please say a prayer for my mom. I'd really like God to know how much we need her still down here.

Thanks for allowing me to vent,

Ginger

EVERYONE Should Visit Vegas at Least Once!!!

2006-06-02T15:22:00.000-04:00

After visiting Las Vegas for the first time, I really feel it's somewhere everyone should see at least once. It was SUCH a blast, and I'm not even much of a gambler! This picture is at a restaurant called the Voodoo Lounge at the Rio hotel in Vegas. Unfortunately my brother couldn't make it, so I went with my sister-in-law, and some mutual friends of theirs. I'm on the far right, seated next to my sister-in-law. On the left are their friends Mike and Amy. We went there mainly because of the giant fishbowl drinks with the fog spewing out that you see in front of us. A fishbowl full of booze! How can you beat that!!! Anyways, I hope everyone enjoys these pictures. I'll try to keep posting more as I develope them. Hope everyone enjoyed them!

Isn't He Precious!!!

2006-06-02T14:38:00.000-04:00

This is my absolutely adorable kitty named Sirus. I have about 1,000 pictures of him, but I'm assuming that people would stop visiting my blog if I covered it in his pictures. He'll be 2 in November and he's a whopping 18 pounds!!! I would have to say that he is one of the most important things in my life. This is also my fail safe alarm clock :) ! He knows what time I have to be up EVERY morning and always flops down right on my stomach when it's time for me to get up. He's EXTREMELY hyper and quite a ham. He ALWAYS has to be the center of attention and if you ignore him or he feels you should pay him more attention, you may fall victim to a drive by scratching. He's also been know to wrap his paws around legs and either bite ankles, or just let you drag him if he doesn't want you to leave. He's good at forcing attention. If your walking (given he doesn't wrap around your legs), he'll run ahead of you, flop down and roll onto his back with his paws in the air. How can anyone resist how cute he is :) !!!!

Cocktails Anyone?

2006-06-02T14:21:00.000-04:00

Well, many of you have been asking for me to post some more photos, so ask, and you shall receive! I didn't have many good ones, but seeing as that I've taken quite a few vacations in the last year, I figured I'd share some of them with all of you! Don't be looking for anything too insightful in this posting. Just a little info on the picture. This was taken in January of 2006. My family took an 8 day cruise in the Mexican Riviera. This is a picture of me (left) and my sister-in law, Rena (right) in Mazatlan. We're on our way to an island beach with FREE DRINKS!!!! (Note, this was taken at about 10:30am. Mai-Tai breakfast! YUM!)

Split Decisions!!! Give My Brain A Hand!!!

2006-05-23T10:30:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm sitting at my desk and I'm three seconds away from COMPLETELY losing my mind and chucking my Intro to Java Programming book across the room. I mean REALLY. Who uses this crap! I'm not a computer science major! The only thing this book will be good for when I FINALLY finish this class is as a coaster for my gin and tonic on my end table. Actually.....if I think about it.......it's about 900 pages, so maybe it would be better to use to cut limes on! WOW! And I didn't think it was useful :) ! So, anyways, besides bitching about senseless classes to help me become a "well rounded student," I was considering my next vacation. But then it occurred to me that I can either, pay off my credit card and get my own apartment without having to worry about credit card payments and DELAY the vacation, or, take a well needed rest from work and school, spend the money on vacation, and maybe delay a complete nervous breakdown. So I guess you can say I'd like some insight into this. I need some advice as to what I should do. FEEDBACK PEOPLE! I'd greatly appreciate any advice/ideas any of you may have. What would you do. I'm not saying that I couldn't get an apartment WITHOUT vacation, it would just save me alot of money. Anyways, any opinions would be greatly appreciated. You ALL know how great I am with decision making :) !

Ginger

Time for a breather! Could life get any CRAZIER?!?

2006-04-25T10:11:00.000-04:00

Ya know, I now know what it feels like if I were to hook a defibulator directly to my brain and give it a couple jolts. I mean, I didn't realize that being away from school for so long would send my brain into a six year hibernation! Although the classes I just finished weren't exactly rocket science, I can relate the feeling my brain has as the equivalent of how my body feels after jogging a couple miles following an eight day vacation!!! It's unbelievable how intellectually stimulated I feel! But anyways, it's finally time for a break! I can't even IMAGINE how my smart friends feel (Meggan, Kim, I'd be standing on the ledge of a building if I were YOU guys!). So anyways, for those of you who didn't know, I just returned from Las Vegas. WHAT A BLAST!!!! Now there's a place that everyone should go at least once! I totally can't wait to go back. Maybe next time, I'll get married while I'm there.........hmmmmm.........now there's a thought........... So anyways, I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still alive and well! I know this wasn't exactly a lively posting, but I wanted to let everyone know that life is going GREAT and I'm hoping everyone is doing well. Deeper thoughts next time!

Ginger

Does YOUR Brain Know which Shoe is the Right Fit?

2006-03-27T12:36:00.000-05:00

Have you ever had a clear idea of what you wanted, actually GOT what you wanted, then thought that maybe it's not really what you wanted to begin with? The best way I can describe the decisions I make in life, is by comparing them to shoes. Whenever there comes a crossroads in my life to where I need to make a decision that will determine how events will onfold in the future, I tend to make the choice that seems the best at the time, but may not be what I want in "the long run." It's like when you go to the store needing a new pair of shoes. You spot "the ones". You know, it's beautiful, matches all of your outfits, AND is available in your size. You don't need to try them on because they are PERFECT in every way. So you skip happily to the cash registered, grinning ear to ear with your success, and take them home. The next day, you get up full of excitement to grace your foot with the new shoes presence. You rip the shoes from the box, put them on and slowly, the grin fades. There's something about them that just isn't right. It doesn't hug the foot like it should, it sits awkwardly on the feet in an uncomfortable manner, and you realize that it just isn't what you imagined at all. They aren't what you want for "the long run" and your euphoria melts away. Sure you can live with the shoe and hope that it will mold to your feet with everyday wear. But is it what you really want? Is there another shoe that would have been a better fit? I guess that even though it seems outrageous, this is the best way to explain how I'm feeling about my life right now. I can't see ANYTHING for my future, so I'm trying to do what makes me happy in the "NOW". Do I seem completely off my rocker or can someone else out there relate? Please tell me I'm not COMPLETELY nutty. Anyways, can anyone shed some light on this? I just don't know how to figure out what I want. ANYONE?

EASILY confused,

Ginger

I Think My Brain is Broken. Transplant Anyone???

2006-02-17T09:51:00.000-05:00

Are there ever times when you TRULY believe you've lost your fricken' mind? I don't know if I have some sort of bi-polar disorder, or if it's just the hard core realities of being a girl. I think I've gotta be one of the moodiest b*tches on this planet. Damn estrogen..... Are brain transplants possible? Anybody interested in a trade? Hmmm...... didn't think so...............

So ANYWAYS, I'm feeling much better since my recent rantings. At the moment I'm not hating life and no longer wish to be hit by a semi truck. So, we'll put that on hold for the time being. Well, although it's late, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! Ya know, this is a holiday that I don't really get. I'm not saying that I don't care for it, because every girl LOVES it when they get flowers and candy, or even just treated like a princess because of this day. It's a great feeling. But if you really think about it, it's a holiday that caters to women, who in many cases, get extremely upset or offended if their guy (or girl, it IS the new millenium) don't cater to them on this "special" day. It's a day for the greeting card companies and flower shops to just sit back and rake in the dough with a huge ass smile because of the men who get sucked in to buying flowers, cards and candy to avoid being "ripped a new one" when they get home because either, "you forgot what today is" or "you just don't love me enough, do you"? Being a woman, you have to feel slightly guilty about this. I mean, do men get a holiday that caters to them? I guess being this time of year, you could MAYBE consider the Super Bowl their "holiday". It IS a day for them to get away from their wives, belch and fart with their barbaric, immature friends, drink beer, watch the game, then call into work the next day because of their massive hangover. Could THIS, in fact, be THEIR holiday? That's definately something to consider.............

Thoughts anyone?????

Ginger

BRAIN OVERLOAD!!!

2006-02-07T16:23:00.000-05:00

If your not in the mood for absolute anger and depression, you may just want to skip this posting. I am having one of those days where the only idea that seems to be soothing, is the thought of being hit by a semi truck and killed instantly. Hopefully there is SOMEONE out there that can relate with how I'm feeling. It's as if God enjoys watching me suffer. Just when I think things are going well, WAM!!! Just when I start to feel comfortable in my own skin and proud of the things I have accomplished, there's ALWAYS something that pulls the rug RIGHT OUT from under me. I just don't understand why I can't seem to do anything right. I have made SO many huge strides and have done SO much to tear myself away from the terrible human being that I used to be, but sometimes I think it would have been easier if I hadn't changed at all. Sure I have more things to show for my life, and the difficult journey alone is plenty to be proud of, but the person I was before didn't give a crap about what other people thought about who I was or what I did with my life. Things seemed so simple then...... I just wish maintaining happiness was as simple as having no feelings whatsoever. It would be nice if just ONCE, people would GET OFF MY BACK AND LEAVE ME ALONE!!!! I truly believe that I put 100% in EVERYTHING I do. The only problem is, when I make a simple mistake that I don't even realize, I have to be pushed to the ground, kicked a couple of times, scolded like a naughty little child, and punished so "I realize that what I did was wrong." I'm not a dog who peed on the carpet, and I'm not a little child who needs a spanking. Just TELLING me something DOES get through in my head. I'm not an idiot. I AM capable of comprehending a simple conversation. Ughhhh....... I hope I'm a strong enough person to finish school and get my degree. That way I can tell all the people who treated me like a moron to kiss my ass!!!! WHOSE THE IDIOT NOW!!!!

ANGRY and STRESSED to the limit........

Ginger

Give the brain a rest. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!

2005-12-27T08:47:00.000-05:00

Well, to all who stumble across this, I wish you all Happy Holidays!! Does anyone else actually feel LESS stressed when the holidays are over? I'm sitting at my desk, and thinking about the fact that, yeah, it sucks that it's Monday and vacation is over, but I find myself realizing that I feel a HECK of alot better that the stresses of the holiday are over. No more LENGTHY CRAZY lines at the stores. No more insane, sale obsessed women with GIGANTIC purses, willing to pummel you with them to get the LAST SALE ITEM on the rack. It's all smooth sailing from here. I truly believe that New Years Eve was placed right after Christmas on purpose. Because I'm sure we could ALL use a LONG night of stiff drinks after the entire Christmas ordeal. I mean, don't get me wrong, I LOVE the holidays. Most people seem to be in a much better mood. But after the long month of fighting for store parking spaces with some granny andretti, f-bombs dropping when some 5:00am shopper gets the LAST gift on the shelf that you need, only to hear the words ON BACK ORDER, opening gifts only to realize that NOTHING fits because you decided the diet was "on hold" for the holidays, then having to stand in LONG CRABBY return lines and praying to the customer service gods that you have the right receipt, I could SURELY use an ENTIRE night of stiff drinks. It's a well planned holiday that is sure to bring the stresses of the holiday to a close. So Happy Holidays, Happy New Year, and all that good stuff. FINALLY give that brain a rest, and have a couple cocktails for me!!!

Cheers!
Ginger

By the way, a quick thought, I truly think that the term "Christmas In July" came about because when you decide to back order something, it doesn't show up until then. Hmm.......interesting thought...........

THESE are the BEST years of my life?!?!?

2005-12-15T10:26:00.000-05:00

Call me crazy (just not to my face), but am I the only one who finds it humorous when someone says "Oh to be your age again," or perhaps, "Enjoy it now, those are the best years of your life?" To consider that I am 26, unmarried, have NO CLUE what I want to be "when I grow up", live with three guys, another girl, two cats, and a dog, not to mention the fact that this is the third residency I have had in the last two years, work two jobs, only to realize that the money "has plans" before I even hit payday, AND that I have about as much free time for "fun" as a chicken's life span after getting his head chopped off is not EXACTLY what I had in mind for "the best years of my life". Although, in all fairness, we ALL have our choices and all choose our own paths. But who knew they would lead here?! Crappy path! But like they all say, one day, we'll look back on these times and laugh.

I'm laughing already, can't you hear it? Yeah......didn't think so.
Ginger

I DO come from a NORMAL family

2005-12-13T13:56:00.000-05:00

Figured that I should post a photo of my family, so that people can at least SEE that I come from a normal family. Although............then again.............it may just be the picture that came with the frame I have on my desk..............like you would know!!! Does anyone REALLY know whose family comes in the frame? I mean, they DO belong to SOMEBODY right? It's one of those things that you never really think about when you buy the frame, but does actually make you think.....when you think about it......right? Hmmmm.
Hey, they always said Ted Bundy looked like a nice, normal guy, look how things turned out there! YIKES!!!!

Ginger

Time to SHAKE UP THE BRAIN

2005-12-09T13:25:00.000-05:00

I often wonder (usually on a really CRAPPY day) about what Thomas Jefferson wrote in the Declaration of Independence about "the pursuit of happiness." In all reality, it should be "reaching the realization of contentment." Is there really anyone on this ENTIRE planet that has finished this pursuit? NO!!! I'm quite sure there isn't. I honestly believe that despite what we own, or what we achieve, there will ALWAYS be something more that prevents us from reaching the "euphoria" of true happiness. Which brings me to the conclusion that the pursuit is a farce. The best thing to do is to learn how to deal with what kind of garbage the "poker dealer of life" spews out at us, and to trade in the crap we don't want for something that will hopefully play out better. It's adjusting to what circumstances surround us to just suck it up and think, "things could ALWAYS get worse." You win some you lose some I guess. And THAT my fellow bloggers, is the true pursuit.

Any thoughts to add?
Ginger

Welcome Fellow Bloggers

2005-12-09T10:43:00.000-05:00

Welcome everyone that would like to share in the insanity that is my world. I am testing out blogging as a way of "dumping out" the crazy useless thoughts that flood my brain, with the possibility of some feedback or reassurance that I am NOT completely off my rocker. Maybe slightly unhinged, but not entirely ready for the nuthouse. So feel free to also use this as a dumping sight for senseless thoughts or emotions, maybe even occasional pointless ramblings that perhaps you feel like sharing with the rest of the other nutty bloggers. So come on in, vent, ramble, whatever you like! Welcome to sharemybrain!!!!

Your truly nutty host,
Ginger